I want to thank those that sent prayers and energy during my illness it means the world to me and makes a huge difference in my long recovery ahead of me. I am in absolute awe at the outreach of so many and humbled as well. I would like to that this opportunity to share my story so that others may benefit in some small way. I never thought for one second that my life would turn out this way. I never thought that my faith would be tested many times over in such a short time. I look back over the years and wonder how anyone could survive that, let alone how I could. In the last three years I have had cancer scare, I lost my husband, relocated and thought my life was on track when February 3, 2012 I was rushed to the hospital with pain in my stomach, after three hours and ton of x-rays later I was transferred to a larger hospital by helicopter. There I was told I could have ovarian cancer because there is a huge mass growing on my right ovary. The mass was leaking into my body causing major pain. Hours later the team of doctors told me the mass was the size of a beach ball I had no fear not even a hint of it. Some would think it was because of the morphine that I was receiving, but it wasn't I did not have any fear from the second it started. Others would lead you to believe, it was because I wanted to die. They are wrong, It never crossed my mind. I remember laying on this table and telling my daughter that she needed to leave and go on her ski trip and how sorry I was I couldn't babysit Riley for her but she shouldn't miss her trip because of me. As they loaded me in the helicopter I remember my grandson standing there with a bit of fear on his face as he waved to me slowly as my daughter assured him, I even remember the medics telling my grandson they were gonna take good care of his grandmother. There were so many that stepped in and was caring for me. It brings tears to my eyes even now as I am reflecting back on it. Each and every one of these people were in place with the gift God gave them to carry out his will. I am a living breathing product of one of God's unbelievably beautiful miracles here on earth. I am truly blessed in all aspects of my life. I know how strange it is to hear this from someone that was stricken with so much trials in her life to be so optimistic about it all. It has nothing to do with being a person that thinks the glass is half full or one that thinks it is half empty. I have been on both sides of that fence. It boils down to having one's eyes opened and embracing ones faith after so long of living in the darkness. If it wasn't for the ugly tragedies that have been a part of my life I would not have been able to see the beauty of every day miracles as they unfold around me. When my husband was in ICU three years ago , I was blessed with witnessing strangers coming together praying for one anthers loved ones and what started as two grew to a group the size of 20 and 30 people gathered in the hall when some would leave others would join . During my illness I witnessed not a handful but an army of people coming together for a single cause yet again. Each and every one of these people were not of the same faith nor did it matter in the least. The peace, The love, and The compassion are the main ingredients that connected each one of us during these trying times. The true miracle is each time we are blessed with seeing such things happening around us , we are also blessed with taking a small part of it into our self becoming the miracle God intended it to be.
"Thought I want to share with everyone that is reading this, My trials managed to bring so many of my family, friends, and medical staff and their families and friends together for one cause, and that wasn't even the end of it, through my latest trials it became a learning experience for medical students for years to come as well as myself. Even now those that read this have been brought together. No matter what happens No matter where you are in your own life, Just let your light shine through and keep strong in your faith !"
