A Blessed Confrontation

• Posted by Kesha Moore September 15, 2010 - 858 views

  I am thankful for the opportunity to minister. I hope that someone will be blessed.

  Recently I found myself in a somewhat upsetting situation.  I came face to face some of my demons.  Now most of the time your personal demons are abstract, but sometimes your demons attack through peple.  Yes just as there are people placed in your life and in your path to bless you, there are some who are placed in your path to destroy you. The bible speaks of this.  On some level many of us notice this but we tend to not consiously observe it.  Maybe for some of us its harder to observe because the person who harms you the most is yourself.

  I have had a few of these people who are used by demons make appearances in my life, but I didn't start to acknowledge that until a few years ago. Once i did I realized that it was nessesscary to recognize and rid my life of these people and factors.  If I did not I would be contributing to my own demise.  And yes, in my case this did involve ridding myself of certain character traits and checking for others. Every part of  true spiritual growth begins with self examination.  No matter what rituals or services you attend, if you cannot love your fellow man as your brother, then you need to work on that.  If your lust is so strong for material or physical things that you are digging yourself into a hole of debt, you need to find out why youre doing this. If you lie and cheat with those who love you and you claim to love , its probably because you dont love yourself enough. If you're manipulating, and mistreating everyone who loves you because your lust controls you, you must change it.  If you have so much malice, and jealousy inside of you that you hate to see someone have something you want and you will take measures to make sure they dont have it either, you are lost.  These things are not of God.  These things are demonic and they dont just hurt those around you they hurt you.

  The person I recently came in contact with is someone I've know almost all my life.  When we were very small children it started.  She attacked my self esteem.  She called me names and made me the focus of ridicule in certain settings. When that didnt work she would tell lies and turn whoever she could against me. We got a little older and it continued.  There were many lies told I had friends turn against me and even boyfriends break my heart while she happilly observerd the damage she had done.  We got a little older still and it got worse.  She would pretend to be my friend in order to get close enought to do some damage and soon as I blinked there would be some type of drama or trouble.  I was taken off every ministry in the church because of her lies. Ministries that I loved and the The Lord blessed and ordained me for.  I still live with the damage of her rumors to this day. It has afftcted my family relationships, my love life, and my spiritual life.

   I hated this person for a long time because no one else really caught on to her and she did take alot from me. Some things I can never recover. Shes never apologized, or admitted one of the things shes done and when I see her she still pretends to be my friend and to care. Usually it bothers me, but when i saw her this time I was comforted in knowing that if it had not been for the demon, that tried to devour everything I had I would not be who I am today. I have to be thankful for that and I d rather have suffered a little than to be so consumed with covetousness that I go to such lenghts to hurt another being. I lookd at her and I realized that I had been more free all my life than she may ever be in hers. I didn't say a word to her about any of this and I doubt I ever will because its obvious I need to keep my distance. I do hope though that we all decide to make to effort to face our own demons so that we can blees those we contact and save ourselves in the process.

  AMEN