May the readers of this blog be blessed.
This entry is going to take the form of a prayer request. I am going through some things in my life right now and i just don't know what else I can do at this point. I've been on my own since I was seventeen. Ive had alot of rough times, and Ive moved around alot. I have no parents because my father murdered my mother when I was an infant. I also have no siblings, no husband, no children, and no one that I can really depend on. My life has benn struck with tradgedy, abuse, trauma. I've been through more than most people but in the end it always made me stronger.
I finished cosmetology school in May and I was prepared to move away from the town I currently reside in. Then the landlord informed me that my roommate had not payed her share of the rent for eight months. I payed the back rent and she moved out. In the meantime I have been looking for jobs (any kind of job) for almost two months and havent found anything at all. I havent even had an interview. Ive been trying to sell my car, but I've been trying since May and noone bought it yet. Its been overheating and I cant drive it which takes me out of many job opportunities because there is no local bus route in this town. I am almost a month behind in rent again and the landlord is getting impatient. I dont know what else I can do.
Im alone in this town and If I dont make it out of here soon I dont know what will happen to me. I need a breakthrough. right now I just cant seem to see my way out. Ive been trying so hard and praying about it. Everytime I would meditate after prayer I was lead to start this blog. I dont know if its doing any good but I hope so. Ive also been having trouble with grinding my teeth and breaking them. Also though Im trying to keep it positive Ive been getting really lonesome and sometimes I get scared at night so I dont sleep much. Even with all of this, somehow inside i feel that everything will be alright. That this will be a testimony. However I struggle with my faith in times like these because I cant just do nothing, but really theres nothing I can do. Pleas just keep me in your prayers I dont want to have to live on the streets again. I need a breakthrough.
Amen