So, i am awakened and transformed by this notion of assigning meaning to the use or purposeful non-use of capital letters. It makes conscious in me what i have been doing for years, often to criticism. I have always preferred to use a small i as a pronoun and to not capitalize my first name. It just feels right to me.
Intrestingly, I have been criticized for this because other people perceive that i am somehow expressing a lack of self-esteem by doing so. Also, I write for literary purposes, and feel the constraints of proper use of language.
But as a writer and contemplative, i am drawn to express myself authentically and only today with the conversation about radar's choice about his name, did i see the mirror in myself. funny how that works. seeing the mirror made my process conscious. Of course, I prefer to be known as "arlia". Of course, i prefer to use "i". Of course, it was only convention and conformity that kept me from following those inclinations. Of course, now being conscious of it, i am going to be deliberate in my use of small letters to reflect my knowings.
What really intrigues me is that it points to the dichotomy of the universe in which we live. We are all one, and we are all unique. We are all unique expressions of the infinite mystery. The world we experience is really all the same energy, with a variety of vibrations that we percieve differently. A cat vibrates differently than a tree or a cloud or a child.
So, some people based on their own focal point, choose to stand out among All That Is with names that say "THIS IS ME"....they like to emphasize their uniqueness among the unity. (this would probably also include people who criticize and are uncomfortable with a lack of proper capitals) Some of us like to emphasize the unity among the uniqueness...with symbols that tie us together, not separate us. I even hold that dichotomy inside myself. There are times i love to be bold, individual and flashy and i embrace that part of me, knowing that it is just part of the whole of me.
And the beauty that moves my heart is- we are all right. We are all correct. We are the most exquisite individual creations of one Source. We are all the same, only different.
To me, that is the beauty of this experience we are all having. We come into this life (as I believe) choosing to forget so we can re-member who we really are. We are all one, and that re-membering heals us individually and as a planet. Namaste. The spirit in me bows to the spirit in you. We are one.
arlia :-)
