Everything we feel every day
are fleeting dreams
for some, they're mostly nightmares
The pain and loss and death that taste like ash
we swallow down
And no one's unaffected
But lately I've been feeling
a light inside of me
it shines on every corner
and banishes the dark
I don't understand it
I haven't felt it in so long
I can't remember
and even then, not quite the same
I wouldn't trade this feeling
for anything
but sometimes, sometimes
I don't know what I'm doing
And I need to shut down
and let this light wash over me
I need to shut down
as I remember how to feel
I need to shut down
just for a moment or two
and take the time to realise
this heaven's all too real
Some days it gets lighter in my heart
and I feel feelings
that aren't supposed to be there
Cos I'm not used to dealing with this light
I've walked in darkness
for what seems like forever
But then you came and changed me
you touched something inside
I know that I'm still me in here
but it's a change that I can't hide
And I wouldn't want to
I'm better for having known you
I'm not the same now
and I've stopped looking back
to see myself before
you gave this to me
But sometimes, sometimes
I'm scared in this new skin
And I need to shut down
and get used to being me again
I need to shut down
and rediscover who I am
I need to shut down
just for a moment or two
and take the time to count my blessings
for the better me you make
And if I ever stumble in the dark
I know you'll catch me
and help me to shine again
As I walk this path and grow a better heart
I'll feel stronger
Maybe I won't need to do it
Won't need to shut down
won't need breaks from bliss anymore
Won't need to shut down
won't be overwhelmed by love and light
Won't need to shut down
won't need a moment or two
but won't forget to count my blessings
for the better me you made
