Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about the way things play out in our lives. I’m going to start this off by explaining the way that I see this great mystery we call life and why I think we are here. This is gonna be a long one folks so kick back relax and take what you will from it. If something about it doesn’t suit you, fine, so be it, I appreciate your willingness to read it and think about it none the less :) Alrighty then, let’s begin!!
Our lives are meant to be a great joy and yet also a great burden. I know this seems contradictory but you will see what I mean shortly. We come into our lifetimes as experiencers and students for God/Goddess. We willingly choose to come to this planet and others in order to grow and perfect our Spirits. Basically what I’m saying here is that our lifetimes are kind of like grad school for our Spirits. We choose to do this several times because with each life we focus on a new lesson, a new major so to speak. We were created in the image of God/Goddess which means that, like them, we also have unlimited potential, yet we were created without Gnosis/knowledge of how to use this potential. As we go through our lifetimes we gain knowledge and we therefore begin to fulfill our potential.
I believe that we make a contract or chart with God/Goddess before we come into each lifetime. This chart contains not only what our “major” will be but also how we will go about fulfilling it. We choose the people that are going to help us achieve it and we choose most of our major experiences. Let me make very clear that I believe we choose both the positive experiences and the negative experiences. We choose both the positive people and the negative people who will help us bring about our growth. Both are a part of the process and both are necessary for our growth. Our greatest knowledge and growth normally comes out of our most horrible experiences. And our most horrible experiences normally come at the hands of those we love the most in this world.
Many times we tend to bury our most painful experiences for a while, even for a very long while, because the pain is still so deep and real to us that it makes working through it right away too much. We have to distance ourselves for a while and find stable ground again before we are ready to open those wounds again and that’s okay, so long as we DO go back to them and finish dealing with them. God/Goddess’ plan for our lives depends on our learning. If we aren’t reflecting on our experiences and learning from them then we aren’t growing spiritually from them, we aren’t upholding our end of the “contract.” God/Goddess/Our true purposes in life cannot be revealed to our Earthly minds until we truly learn to love and forgive as They do, without restriction or reservation. Expecting nothing in return and giving even when we know it will not be appreciated or accepted.
Understand that while we are finding that stable ground again, many times, we are fulfilling other parts of our “contract.” We are being the negative person/experience for someone else. Yeah I know, there is no excuse for mistreating another right? And I agree but, the bottom line is that we will each do this and we have each done this already, several times in our lives. Some of us are in the process of it now even if we don’t realize it. When we come out of these periods, if we have managed to deal with the experiences that put us there or are in the process of dealing with them, we look back and we see the hurt and damage we caused another and we are filled with guilt over our actions. We begin to blame ourselves for the negative experiences that they have had and we end up beginning an entirely new learning process. This of course brings us to forgiveness, not only forgiving others but also ourselves.
Yes we must forgive others of the wrongs that they commit against us because otherwise we will carry anger, hatred and negativity in our Spirits and we all know the damage that these emotions can do to us, not just mentally but also physically. We can, and often do, manifest these emotions in some kind of physical way. When we carry around negativity it must find an outlet of some kind, we will lash out at others, we will become physically sick, we will form addictions, we will give up our hopes and dreams and we will find ways to abuse ourselves in much the same ways that we feel others have abused us. This is unhealthy to the extreme and though it is hard at times to forgive it is absolutely necessary, that doesn’t mean that it will happen as soon as you decide to try, it invariably will take a lot of time and a lot of hard work to finally fully forgive those who have seriously hurt us. Many times we will feel that we have forgiven only to find that it comes back at some later time, when this happens acknowledge it and examine it. Figure out what you still need to do and what you still need to work through to completely forgive and be gentle with yourself. Understand that this could happen once or several times over your lifetime. Know that each time you hash it out, every time you dig deep and really work at it you will be rewarded and you will gain knowledge into the situation and into yourself.
Now I want to focus on the need to forgive ourselves because just as we need to forgive others of their wrong doings we absolutely MUST forgive ourselves of wrong doing also. Each of us has caused another pain, broken another’s heart or caused another to doubt their worthiness. Each of us has guilt for the pain we’ve caused others. Many times we will even hold guilt and shame for the times that we have been the victim if our experiences caused pain to others as well as ourselves. An example of this is sexual abuse. A victim of this type of abuse will feel guilt and shame because many times they will blame themselves in some way for their experiences and also because many times when their abuse come to light it causes pain to those they love and who love them. When we hold guilt towards ourselves we are angry and hateful to ourselves. We cannot truly love and accept ourselves or anyone else if we are filled with negativity and guilt. Forgive yourself knowing that your actions were a part of another’s learning process and forgive others knowing that their actions were a part of your learning process.
We must be both the experiencer and the transgressor. Just as others are the vehicle for our growth and learning so must we also be the vehicle for another’s growth and learning. Just as God/Goddess allows us to experience negativity They also allow us to be the negativity. What is most important, what is absolutely vital, is what you take from these experiences. What you learn from them and how you use what you learn from them to benefit yourself and others.
In my opinion, to forgive another is Divine but to forgive ourselves is to truly understand the full depth of God/Goddess’ love for each and every one of us. Forgiving others is always much easier than forgiving ourselves but if you take nothing else from this post take this: You are loved, you are appreciated, you are worthy and you are exactly as God/Goddess made you to be. Follow your path and know that no matter what you do or what is done to you, you are perfect in the eyes of God/Goddess and in the eyes of those who love and support you.
Be Blessed
