The Mask

• Posted by Mystic Angel February 2, 2017 - 1,099 views

  I recently contacted an oldfriend on Facebook. I have known him since I was 14. We always has a unique connection that seemed to transcend communication. We were so in sinc that during a period of time we were together, we really didn't need to talk much. But things changed and we were seperated which required us to talk, needless to say didn't work out well,lol. Throughout the years, we were always better as friends then anything else. But the greatest communication always seems to be when we are friends and other emotions don't seem to get in the way. Anyway's, so I contacted him because I noticed he was friends with one of my friends from way back in the day. We all were friends back then and she was actually dating his older brother at the time, but I wasn't for sure if it was her, so I messeged him to confirm.  It was much better then looking like an idiot to someone who might actually be a stranger,lol. So, in the course of the conversation, we did a little catching up and he basically extended an invitation to contact him and talk whenever.

  Then I was thinking about it today, not just him, but everyone. Each person on my facebook is either a family member or someone I made friends with either in real life or on the two forums I am on. I'm VERY picky about Facebook and so I don't like friending just any random people. I literally hand picked each person, and here's the kicker, by the energy I feel from them! As an Empath, I have always been really good at reading people. I don't like dealing with the masks that  people wear because I always believed it was a front for who they really are inside. When I read people, I immedietly move past the mask and go straight to the person inside because I want to know who the real person is. I never really took stalk in the mask. It's a pretty stupid move on my part, if you think about it. Even though the people I am drawn to have such beautiful lights, and I know them quite intimatly (not sexual) on a soul level, how well do I really know them as a human being as oppossed to another spiritual being? I don't, not at all. And how well do they really know me? Probebly even less. I realized that the mask isn't something we always hide behind, it's something we create and change according to the situations we are in. This mask is a reflection of who we choose to show to the rest of the world for varies reasons. And it changes from person to person and situation to situations.

  I've actually been thinking about this for awhile. I come onto this site and I go on to an Empath Community and in these situations, I often feel free to talk about the spiritual things I am going through without worring about looking like a complete nutcase, but when I get on Facebook, it's very... light hearted? I don't talk about deep things with any of these people. I don't express alot of who I am because I know the drama and rejection that will follow. For example, walking a mYstical path, practicing magic, talking to dead people and doing other "witchy" or "psychic" things is a huge no-no with the Christian Community. In fact, I have losta couple of friends over it. I also know that my mother would lead the bandwagon and cause so much drama with her comments that  anyone else would be afraid to say anything. But these people, these friends and family that I call friends and family aren't even remotely a part of the most important things in my life. They don't know me. And honestly, I don't really know most of them either. I don't know their likes, their dislikes, other then the fun little poster board shares they put up or maybe some of the other posts they put up. But they don't know thatmy oldest is Transgender ,they don't know my real spiritual beliefs or even my political views. Why? Because of the masks. We pick and choose who will show to what people according to which situation. Even if I wasn't in fear of rejection or people thining I was a complete nut job, there would still be that lack of understanding in certain areas of my life I am trying to express and everyone ignores. Then you worry when noone comments orlikes, whether they think your crazy or wondering if anyone even givesacrap enough to notice. lol,it's a complete mind job! No wonder why the world of social media is so chaotic.

  But the point, is even in this secluded world I have created on Facebook, I still don't know the human,only the soul, deep within, that few people choose not to show. I want to know people on a deeper level, but most people don't go that deep, they go as far as the mask. It's also made it difficult to socialize on their level. As soon  as I try to go deeper, people freak and I end up  looking like the freak,lol. But I  am learning that the mask is just as important as the soul within. Hopefully I  can eventually figure out how to connect with the masks. And learning to understand that not every relationship is going to be deep. Each connection has apurpose and figuring out what the purpose in and not expecting the "all or nothing". Now, I just have to  figure out how to  express myself on Facebook as well without giving away everything.That's my biggest problem, not being able to feel  like I can express myself fully. IDK. But, I am taking more stock in  the mask, and one of my New Year'sresolution is to start getting to know the human inside of the spiritual soul.