I was reading a post this morning by Rev. Lisa Taylor If we desire our faith to be strengthened, we should not shrink from opportunities where our faith may be tried, and therefore, through trial, be strengthened.
I had to take a step back for a few moments to think about this. Often when I come here, i kind of get wrapped in the persona of minister . I read alot of people sharing thoughts, inspiration, sermons, and words of knowledge. alot of my views of this persona often reflects the "traditional " methods of the things that ministers do, such as the things written above. This has been a pretty confusing thing for me because of my ecletic beliefs. Sure, I can can teach, I guess I could preach, I can pray, but the persona that I have lumped the whole title of minister seems to be so limited. This is not to say that the wonderful ministers here are wrong, in fact, I see that they have found their purpose within this calling. But because of my own limited of mind, I never realized until this morning that the unique things I do actually do IS my ministry. You will never find this type of ministry under any church, at least that I am aware of, nor would many even consider it a ministry, myself included until now. Again, this is witnessed to my own, I don't want to say closed-minded, but how my perceptions still are so limited, because it's not traditional. So I had to evaluate what a ministry really is and I think I have finally found some of the answers I have finally been searching for.
The reason why I changed from Mystic to Rev and then back to Mystic is because I was trying to find a title, per sey that would fit me. Everything, everywhere I go , when listening to people talk about their ministries and the things they are achieivng often seem similar with the traditional ministries. But my path brings to me to a completely different realm. I'm a magickal practioner, so when I look at the other practioners, I often see the same familar traditions of leading a coven, or a group of people in their spiritual beliefs. Again, this is great. Again, I don't fall under it and I know each should walk their own path, but I guess the word seemed so limiting to me that I placed myself in a box trying to balance everything out or trying to seperate roles mystic to minister to psychic to witch. I read this qoute for other reasons that I will soon explain, but i realized that these other things I do IS my ministry. It isn't traditional, and many will object, but for the first time I can finally see beyond the ideation of traditional views as far as minstering to other people and can finally look at these things as not just a gift but a calling. Getting inspiration from one quote has not only given me stregnth for a project I am working on, but has also helped me find balance within all of the "hats" I wear. There now feels to be a purpose to becoming ordained and to follow the path of minister. It calrifies things within myself so I can move forward in what I am called to do.Everything I do in service to others IS my ministry, whether it be using my abilites to communicate with the spirits , to council those in need, to lend an ear when someone needs to to talk, to send energy someone's way, to casting a spell for someone in need, or to help keep our children safe by eleimating access for sexual preditors. This has really been an enlightening experience and now the confusion seems to have disappeared. For this, I thank you.
Now for the first thought about the quote. I have been wanting to get more involved with my abilites and the groups I volunteer for. Though i have always been a medium, this is one area that has brought me the greatest fear. I have fallen into a whole the last couple of years and feel that God had basically handed me over to the more darker realms. asically handing me over to a den of hungry lions. This has hurt my faith a great deal. Recently, I have been working very hard to regain the stregnth and faith I once had. It has been difficult, but within the last week or so I can feel my own personal power coming back. I worked through alot of issues concerning my beliefs and where I stand in the eyes of God. A whole lot of crap. I know who I am now and I know who I am in them, the God I worship, the Trinity. My personal power is returning because I realized that being a child of God there is no seperation between their power and mine. For their power is given to me to use as I choose, sure it comes with responsibility, but it's MY choice on how to use it. If God had a specific agenda on how we use his power, he would just come down here and use it himself. My husband showed that to me:) So I have chosen to use some of this power to help find missing people. I have been doing this for awhile but this one is a little different. I am more willing to allow the walls of fear to crumble and am working really hard to believe that I am being watched and protected while I am doing his work.
I've been seeing a female spirit in my home for about a week now. She wouldn't reveal who she was. I am part of a forum that has psychics that help find missing people. I haven't been there in awhile but decided to give it one more shot. I was led to a case of a missing woman. I won't go into detail because it is still an active case and all these things go to LE.
Anyway's, as soon as I began to reply she appeared to me. This happens often and I am used to it, but I often disconnect quickly as soon as I get the answers I am seeking. This time I allowed her to tell me her story, or at least part of it. I felt her emotions and it was as if I was talking to a person during a type of counciling session. She showed me memoried, described certain things in her life, mostly her pain, her love for loved ones, everything that was within her she shared. It was the strangest feeling for me and solidified my theory about taking everything with us when we die. Much of the things were validated by someone else later on, so I knew I connected. But this wasn't some ok, we have to convince the ghost to cross over, no, this was about helping the spirit work through these issues and helping them make the choice to cross over. She was just like any other human with a body, there was no differance and I was finally able to see a side of the spirit world on a deeper level. It was like all the things I already knew finally became clear and real.
The quote basically said to me that I need to stop running from opportunites just because I am afraid. I need to push past by fears of the spirit realm and embrace what I have been given. This is my opportunity to not give up, but keep working this case, even if there are snags or doubts. Finding these people help many people and this is how I have chosen to help. This is one of my "ministries" and there are people who need her to be found. There is another who dousn't have a voice in the world that needs to be heard so she won't stay lost. And it did, yesterday, I was afraid, but I pushed past it and I made it through feeling wonderful.
Anyway's this is kind of a long ramble, and was also two fold. It usually works this way with me, lol. It's amazing what knowledge can come from one sentance and from heart who cared enough to share :
Blessed Be,
Angel
