I had no idea how hard my heart has become. Ever since I broke down the wall, I guess I made a choice to rebuild it once again and never even realizing it. I felt led to spend a little time working with Fairy Oracle. The First card I pulled was the crone. I had no idea where this meditation was going to lead to, but it sure hit home when I got to the end. I wanted to share this with you. It never ceases to amaze me how Spirit communicates with us, always revealing the most profound yet simply things. If you want to know what it means to be "enlightened" it's nothing more then the gift of realization.
These are the 4 cards from heart of the Fairy I pulled.
The Crone- the fairy if wisdom.
The Question- The waterfall and pull acts as a wishing well to reveal the answers of which the seeker requests.
The Tempatation- the opposition force that holds one back from following the destined path.
The Farie of Youth- the inner child within that longs to be free again.
As i look into the sacred pool, I see my reflection, that of myself as a child. She is fearful, fearful of what? Everything. She fears the shadows, she fears life, she fears change, and she fears the end. It is difficult for her to understand that in order to have a new beginning, some things must first end and receive closure. At this moment, she does not want to leave. She does not want to get older or to leave the magickal place behind. It is safe. It is full of endless possibilities. I see her looking around as if she is searching for something. She appears to be lost and afraid, yet there is a familiarity to this that she can't deny. She feels alone, though she wishes for companionship, she finds comfort in the solitude. There is a sense of peace within the loneliness.
She see's something shining in the distance. She walks towards this treasure. As she draws near, a creature, a snake hangs down from the tree. She recognizes this as the temptation. She really wants this object, this light that shines so brightly. It brings peace and beauty. She see's tall buildings, people walking up and down the sidewalk, life. A very busy life with normal people in a normal world. But there is fear, for she knows that if she takes it, then all that she knows will fade and her life will completely change. She begins to walk away, looking behind her shoulder. She wonders if she is ready. She finds a rock and perches upon it. In front of her is a beautiful field with large mountains off in the distance. Fireflies dance in the dusk lighting a path through the grass. She glances over one last time towards the shiny object. For some reason, this time it doesn't seem to call her anymore.
She walks through the golden grass down the path set before her. She does not know where she is heading, but she knows that where she is going is where she should be. The sun sets and the stars began to twinkle in the sky. She see's the man up in the sky with a bow and arrow pointing the way. She begins to realize how vast the universe is and how small she is. She layes in the grass just gazing up in the sky in awe and wonder. As she begins to fall asleep a covering made out of soft green grasses cover her and keep her warm for the night. Feeling safe, she falls asleep.
The sun begins to rise as a new day begins. She continues down her her path and again she's the shiny object. Again, she passes it by, choosing to walk alone, in this wondrous place. Sure the nights seem darker here, but the stars shine so bright. Te shiny object could never compare. Day after day, year after year, the child grows into womanhood. Still continuing down the same path. Through deep valleys and high peaks, through great sorrow and grief to profound joy and simplicity. Still she has no destination in mind, no place to call home, but she is content. Many years have passed since she saw the shiny object that seemed to promise normalcy and humanity. Then one day, it appears before her once again. She holds it tightly within her hands. She see's someone in it. The face of an angel. Her heart wells up. She longs to be there with him. But serpant comes back and tells her she can have this if she so chooses, but she would have to leave this world behind. Her heart begins to break and she slowly begins to walk away. He moves in front of her holding the object again. Again she looks within and see's great houses and fancy cars. Beautiful things. She isn't highly impressed ans walks away again. The third time he gets in front of her and again ask's her to look. She tell's him "no" but he put's it in front of her again. "Look". This time she saw horrendous things. She saw hurricanes and destruction. She saw people hurting one another. She saw loneliness and pain. Her heart broke. Then she saw the angel again and in the midst of all the pain, she saw love. She asked herself. "What purpose do I serve other then myself by wandering around here?" I am alone, but I am content. I am afraid, yet I am strong. I have traveled to the bottom of many canyons, across the greatest rivers and have seen to tops of many mountains. But what purpose does this truly serve? The serapant transformed into an old woman and a veil appeared next to her. With her old hands she lifted the veil and the young woman walked through.
Busy streets and careless people.She received strange stares from some as others walked passed her as if she were invisible. Never had she felt more alone then among the crowd. A world made up of concrete and steel replaced the lush green grass and open fields. She quickly regretted her decision and wanted to turn back, but the veil was gone. She was blinded by sorrow and pain, grieving the loss of all that she had and not understanding the point of all of this. No longer seeing the beauty or the magick of this place.
She often wondered if she made the wrong choice. Feelings as if life had no purpose.
One day the old woman returns . The young woman appears worn and weary, filled with sadness and grief. The woman asks her why she was deceived? Where was the angel she was promised. Where was the love she saw. The old woman pulls out the shiny object and ask's the young woman to look at it. Again, she saw looks and see's the world dark and bleak, filled with sadness and loneliness. She tell's the woman" I see nothing different then my life now". The old woman tells her that the shiny thing is nothing more then a mirror reflecting what there is inside. If you could dream about the life that you would choose for yourself what would it be?" The young woman looked again and saw three shining beautiful faces. The faces of her children. Next to them was the angel. The faces of her husband. The old woman pointed and the young woman saw them coming towards her. The buildings began to disappear and was soon transformed into the beautiful field with the mountains in the background. The old woman looked her and asked why she choose to go into a world filled with pain and sorrow?Filled with emptiness and grief. The young woman answered" for love."
But I still do not understand. The old woman smiled. "Life without love held no purpose to you, so you left the place of safety and comfort and risked everything for that love. The building of concrete reflected the confines of your heart. As you can see off in the distance some of the stones still exsist, but your world is no longer covered in concrete and stone. It is now lush and green, with a little bit of stone that was built to house you and your family. Now that you have love, you have a purpose, you have a reason for living. And that love speads. The old woman cast her arms towards the field as other people began to walk toward her. Some bore the scars of their own jounrneys. But each filled with joy and peace.
Through your grief and pain, your desire for love still burned. That love spread through one person, who then found love and spread to another, and another. That love saved your angel, your husband and now your children. This world, this beauty around you, this is a reflection of the love within. Do not be afraid to share it, to give it nor to accept it. You have been wondering what your purpose is, isn't it obvious? You entire purpose is to love and that love will manifest in many different ways. You fought the shadows for love, you traveled between time and space for love, and you helped those in need because of love.
You have grown hard. You've surrounded your heart in concrete once again. The wall you worked so hard to destroy you have slowly been building up once again. This isn't the life you had envisioned and the reason why is because your shadows keep blinding you from the love within. It's not light, for light only comes from one source, love. Without love, there would be no light. The stars were made to give you light within the darkness, but without love, noone would care if you could see or not. Love is the root of everything. Once you learn this lesson, then will your life began to change. Then your life will have purpose and meaning once again. It doesn't matter what you do, for whatever is done without love holds no meaning to anyone.See your world through the eyes of love, my dear Angel and you will find what you seek.
