I have been feeling kind of low this evening. I don't feel that I am living up to my potential. I went in search on what it means to be a Mystic. Ironically, I find myself looking up the typical stuff, mysticism, psychic and all that other wonderful stuff. But that is not what makes me a Mystic, what makes me a mystic is my continued search of self-discovery. I seem to make a common mistake, looking for outside souces to fill that which is within. I will never find what I seek there, so I must go inward. But the path of self discover, I have learned today isn't always going to magickal, sometimes it's mundane and it is up to me to put the magic in it. So I did a candle divination this evening. I will put the symbols here.
The first thing I noticed was an Angel up in the sky and it appeared to have a cord attached below. This is a reminder of who I am but that I am not just connected to the higher realm, I am connected also to the earth. I am always afraid that if I get to involved in the spiritual, I will loose my humanity, but I think that I have forgotten who I am. I am a creator of the Divine and I will never loose my attachment to this earth because I am connected to this earth and those within it, always. There is no ascending and decending, it's merely going from one road to another, but all roads lead to the same destinations. High, low, within, without, it's all connected, there is no seperation. My higher self, the angel within travels with me down below, here on earth, but when I rise again, I am still grounded. I feel the message is that I do not have to be afraid, for they both are a part of me. When I turned the angel over, I saw a strange looking man with only one eye. The man represents pain and the ability to not see clearly. I am often blinded by so much pain, that I cannot see who I really am, I caanot fully see for I am blinded by one eye, yet the other eye still does see and allows me to see what I must this evening.
The second symbol I received is that of what appears to be a boat floating in water. It was attached to the angel. The boat represents safty , for it keeps you safe in the water and allows you travel to places you would not otherwise be able to travel to. The fact that it was attached is another safty net, which represents a fear for traveling down the path of the unknown. I prefer to stay where it is safe. Over time the boat broke off and traveled alone, free to raom where it chose to go. The message here is freedom from fear. When I turned the boat over, I saw the face of a wolf which represents power, courage and stregnth, also a totum animal of mine.
The third symbol I saw was an apple which represents wisdom. The boat floated towards the apple at one point, and feel that by letting go of fear of the unknown and traveling down my path, I will find much wisdom through my travels. My safty net holds me back from moving foward. I am in constant search of wisdom yet I need to allow myself the freedom to explore, for this is when and how I learn. I do not learn through books, I learn through life experiences. When I flipped it over, I saw a witches hat, for this is one area that I have been studying for several years and this is a major part of my path. This is where my spirituality is established and where faith grows quickly and freely. I am reminded not to abandon this path for it is a part of my just like everything else. These are tools that help me along my spiritual path and this is the connection point of my spiritual path.
The last symbol I received was the letter "E". When I turned it around it looked like a tiny festus, which represents eternal life and new beginnings.
This all that I have from this reading but it has been quite beneficial. I know I must let go of fears and in time, this will come to pass.
When we ask, we will always be given the answers we seek. I am not lost as it feels, for now it has been revealed my deepest fears, giving me the stregnth to continue down my path.And for this I am blessed.
