I know I am being called. I hear it each day when I rise and every night when I return to dreamscape.
I will be iniated into the Priesthood soon. I am honored to be called and I feel peace about entering into the servicehood of man, mother nature and the creatures.
I orginally was asked to write about what a Priestess means to me. A Priestess is one who is a leader in servicehood to humans, the earth and all of her inhabitants.
The path I walk is a solitary path so there is no formal expectations other then to simpy dedicate my life to this servicehood however I can. With this realization, I now understand all that is being asked of me. I am now relieved of all anxieties and self-doubt, for what I have been asked to do and asked to learn, I have done all along. I am not being handed a title, nor status of that which I have accomplished, but rather,I am being reminded of who I am, who I have always been, a leader in servicehood.
I do not feel like I am entering a new phase, more-so, I feel like I finally found that which was lost and have spent a lifetime trying to find. Searching yet not quite knowing what I was searching for to find that it was right inside all along. Remembering a memory that was long forgotten and resurrected once again. I am not beginning a new journey but continuing down the path I have always followed. I am not leaving the old behind, but yet remembering the old while using this knowledge and building upon it.
I will not loose myself for it has always been a apart of me. Nor will I loose those who walk with me for they to are a part of my destiny, and I theirs. I am not asked to sacrifice, for I am not asked to give up anything, merely share what I do have. All this time I was afraid that the gifts given to me would be taken away, as if I had to choose what was given and what was asked of me to give, but it's like going to a birthday party. Would you buy your loved one a gift and ask for it's return? No. By giving the gift, you have given a piece of yourself that brought joy to the loved one. Sometimes the gift is practical and is needed for only a time. Sometimes the gift is eternal.But it is not the giver that disregards it, it is the reveiver who decides what is to be kept and that will be tossed away. The Divine gives us many gifts, but none are taken away. We decide what will remain and what is no longer needed. I am understanding now that I do not have to sacrifice one gift for another. I am not meant to choose one gift among many. I have been given them all and each has helped me on my journey. Some practical, some eternal, but each serving it's purpose. But I am the one who decides what to do with these gifts.
I am not asked to do anthing. I am merely being reminded of my path, reminded of all that is within me and the purpose I have long created for this journey. I am merely picking up where I left off long ago. I follow the path within in order to heal without. I serve the Divine by serving his creation which includes myself.
So what does this initaion mean to me? It means that I have chosen to honor my path and to continue with the work I have begun long ago with the help, love and guidance of the Divine. I am choosing to accept myself and my path without regret or fear. I am a child of the Divine, I am a Priestess to the Divine and I accept my rightful position amoung the Priests and Priestesses of the Divine, in the Divine Order of Servanthood.I am now PR. Mystic Angel
