Sup all, i wanted to share something with you all. sometimes i look at life and wonder why am i here or how come i get shafted being a trans woman. well the other night i spoke on skype to a woman who was drunk reaming me a new one for smoking a cigar, liking to smoke pipes and my voice is a man and i will not go far. told me a friend is 2/3rds woman aka intersexed and can have children. let me tell you i got so upset i drank when she told me i was useless and she told me she was leaving as a woman over 40 years. well let me exsplain i am myself i smoke cigars, pipes and drink well after the story i am speaking to you on i have vowed not to drink anymore ever. my drinking days are up. i wrote a comment sober but not happy. you see i drank over half gallon of booze started throwing it up. aaron was concerned and called ems when i was in my tub/shower cleaning up. then when i finished cleaning up i got naked and decided to clean my fire arms. well aaron said when i am drunk sometimes i hurt myself by falling. all i remeber is telling aaron who ever is at my door to go away. well it was police first. policeman said why do i have a shotgun and pistols on the bed i said cleaning them. well he drew and told me if i reached for em i would surely get a bullet in me. i said my faith is strong god will not allow me to get shot. well he told aaron to leave then i told him to back up go home and be happy. i rolled over to pass out. well next thing i know i got my head slammed into a wall the on the ground then slammed into a door. i told the police i didnt anythng wrong. he thought i was suicidal. with 72 hours or pure drinking lack of sleep and trying to figure one person out i couldnt figure out plus this person pissed me off by telling me i am a man and there a woman and sound female. being assaulted once before in a hospital i decided to break free of the restraints and walk out. well i had got to around 500 feet from the hospital when a friend told me if i stayed in bed and not move i wouldnt be restrained. then he told me to get a psyche evalu to see if i was suicidal. i said no. but anyways when i found out the police intemidated aaron and forced him to open my safe they removed my fire arms. now i am got a lawsuit in the works. intimidation and criminal tresspass of my safe means they broke in and took my fire arms while they was locked up. then on top of that the forced me to do a drug test. in the end i got home in one peace. lesson i learned god protected me and i made a butthole outta myself for drinking to much.however i dont take crap from no one ad i got free of the restraints and started to become steamroller. still havnt picked up my fire arms yet from the police. i will look into it tomarrow but right now i am regrouping and trying to figure out what happened before the police walked into my home. i cant remeber plus i didnt like being thrashed around. all in all one policeman i look up to had words with me at the hospital and then a family friend who works at the mental health came out and helped me get outta it as well as my former therapist and another lady. i am upset the doctor forced me to have a drug test against my will. the attorney said against my will i can sue. as for the last bit from what i gathered the police man didnt like me being transgender as well as was upset he cought me getting dressed plus he wanted to shoot me. he was trigger happy. the other policeman responded first all would be well but he responded second and because of it. i must now go and get my firearms back. i do feel like a butt. but the other problom is my apartment managers are worried about me. they think aaron caused it. it was a girl from online of skype. on top of that 3 naibors want to speak to the manager about getting me evicted as tere older people with no faith in god and they want me out because of the firearms. they dont like i have fire arms.
anyways the bottom line is i had faith in god to get me outta the restraints i had faith in god for me not to be shot. and i have faith in god on other issues. god has blessed me well and god has blessed me with some other good news.
also the person who wanted to shoot me told me he wanted to get charges pressed as he said i had a shotgun leveled at him. as i recall i told him to leave my bedroom as i was drunk and i went to sleep. like i said next thing i know ihad my face wacked a few times and in cuffs.
the other policeman stayed with me once i tried to escaped but he knew i was like a lion in a corner i was going to fight and after being assaulted from restraints at one hospital i will never be tied up again. i also vowed not to drink anymore. i learned my lesson.
end of the story. what did i learn i made a butt outta myself i got 3 people seeing the manager about getting me evicted. however being who i am the managers was so worried they was going to go to the hospital to visit me. so tomarrow i have to see her and see the police about my firearms. i didnt loose em as the policeman said. however the one policeman could be fined or fired or both for criminal tresspass of my privates safe.
since i didnt break any rules or laws in my home the police didnt charge me with anything and i got ruled it wasnt attempted suicide by cop.
now i must sleep as i got a long day. last but of info never ever get that drunk as you will be trying to figure out what you did from here to next christmas.
