Hello fellow Reverends and readers of blogs, the reason I am making this blog is to discuss what I want in life and what I am looking for in my ministry. This is to discuss what I have discussed in my video blogs but some of you don’t have acess to you tube or have bad internet connections so I decided to make a blog via text on a word pad while I listen to the polor express dvd in my blu-ray player on my pc. Now the reason I am writing this is 1 of my goals in life is to be a mother even if I am a transgendered woman. All my life I was shafted when it comes too living. Being born I was transgendered, being screwed outta my property from my storage shed being robbed by my sister, being screwed outta my retro check and being screwed outta my inheritance and getting a few pictures after mom died a month ago. Now I been shafted growing up. Abused and raped. Now I am looking to start a family and teach them real values instead of teaching them greed and its ok to screw over people as well as disown people. I want to teach them good values in life as well as not to judge people with any problems,disability, race,religion or creed as well as gender. I don’t like negative people either and want only positive people in my life that will be positive and I want to teach positiveness to my children. I want to teach them not to disown people or be selfish or greedy and I want to spend Christmas and thanksgivings and birthdays with family all I got is my best friend and my dog in my life as I been disowned and lost all family because my sister says I am the bad sheep in the family. My sister is a socialpath and I don’t like her and want her to stay away from me. So the reason I am writing this is to discuss my values and what I want in life as well as I want to start a church if its possible and to raise a family on traditional american values without judging others. I been judged discriminated and I still keep going no matter what I want to teach them patience and good values. My mothers 2 wishes was 1 was to finish my sex change and 2 was to raise a family. I can finish the sex change but I don’t know if I can find someone to help me raise a family or atleast carry a child for me. Let me exsplain I tried marriage agencys from 2001 to 2005 then stopped then now I tried all dating sites and I only flock scammers who want to offer me children and marriage but they want me to send them money via western union and I don’t like it so when I say no to there scam they leave me alone then a new one takes over to try again and im tired of scammers on social groups like myspace,face book. I got people who ask me to use twitter or hi5 of digg.com or other blog agencys. I use xanga for my very serious blogs but I never tried searching for someone on xanga. However I do want to tell you I lost my first partner who was transgendered to suicide in 2001 so it depressed me and im still not over it. And I lost a uncle who was leaving me some money to cover my surgerys but a uncle who disowned me last month found away to take my inheritance from me there. So another reason I want to raise family values so I don’t have scammers, lowlifes and scum as my best bud says riffraffs in my family only thinking about themselves. So as you can see I have had a lot of trials and tribulations but I don’t like the alternative to being in the ground so that’s why I keep going as it has to get better sometime as I see it. So the main reason I decided to make a blog/text version is a friend suggested I do it and I am doing it while I wait for my dinner to finish cooking as well as I upload 3 videos for you all the see my thoughts on greed and for those who cant watch the videos because of dial up speeds I decided to do one of text as well. Anyways I hope you understand I am looking also for someone who can help me better myself as well love me for being me and love me for being tg and not a person who judges me for being me and of course will except me after I finish surgerys. Allot of woman I spoke to who are lesbian wants kids but they don’t want me to raise it with them as they don’t except me as a real woman then I am looking for a woman who doesn’t say things like don’t loose whats down below and they cant except a woman. I am looking for someone who is open that doesn’t mind having children with me and not caring I loose whats down below. Or if I have plastic surgery on my face or on my chests or down below. Most woman I speak to want me to be male and I cannot be male I am just myself however I do want to be a mother and raise a good family and spend holidays and birthdays with family and when its time for me to go to heaven I want family near me so I don’t die alone as im afraid to go alone. I want to watch Christmas movies with family like a Christmas story, the santa claus as well as others like the polor express without watching them by myself. Anyways the other is I don’t like to go shopping by myself at the holiday time as it doesn’t make me happy. I tried many times in town to find a woman for friendship and to start a family the girls here say I am totally weird and they cant and the judge me as most of them are catholic and they claim I will go to hell and bring them with them there if there near me as I am a homosexual when I am lesbian and I am a person who wants to raise a family. Eventually I plan to relocate to another city for surgerys and ect. But right now I am in a farming community. I want someone who wont judge me for being me and I don’t want children to judge others so that’s why I am also looking to start a family. I don’t want family to be greedy and I want to teach them the right values in life. I don’t want them to be selfish. I want also to shop for them for gifts at xmas time and birthdays like I did with my nephew and niece. There 18 and 22 and now there not around and I am feeling empty, broken heart from loosing mom, being disowned and I want to have my heart and soul fixed by finding someone to help me raise a family with the right values. And so I can teach them my experience and wisdom so they can be a better person and adults. So this is my 1st long blog. Look for more in the future. ~Reverend Rita Lee Shotts P.S. I also want to teach family not discriminate on others like me. I been discriminated by sprint phone company as well as Samsung but I will still keep going even if I am discriminated on. I want to teach them not to discriminate on others.