When I was growing up, I was raised the old fashioned way. When I was younger, I went to church as a Lutheran. After my sister passed, we did not go as much. I was in Scouts. If I screwed up, I was grounded, if I was Majorly bad, I got paddled AND grounded. I was taught "If you have nothing good to say about someone, don't say anything at all". I was taught to show respect to my elders and others, even if they weren't worthy of it. I was taught not to interrupt someone while speaking. I was a thief, liar, used recreational drugs and a bully in the past. I could be Vicious and unforgiving at times. I have had people twice my size scared to death of me. I have served my Country when in the USMC. I did not finish High School, yet I have a High IQ. I am lazy, and a slob. I have had some problems with Major Depression and Kleptomania. Still have depression problems occasionally. Been Married and divorced with 2 wonderful kids who are making a better life for themselves then I have. There are times I feel like Job in the bible in the sense that nothing goes right most of the time. I live in a Motel room, because I can not make enough money to pay the High rent costs in my area. I have put a lot of my past behind me, and I have worked at making myself a better, caring person. I have been striving to find my path, and it has led me here. I felt a calling to serve with the ULCM and ULC because of their Credo, Do that which is right. It resonated in my Soul. I am not of the Christian Belief, nor exclusively of any other. I try to help with advice when I can. Yet, more and more often, I have been getting frustrated here. I see a lot of good people here, yet they are attacking each other over trivialities. I don't know if my path is diverging yet, yet I feel something needs a change. I still have a hard time speaking of Love. I will be thinking and observing and deciding if my personal path will be remaining here, or if I should move on.
