20 years ago as a single Mother of 2 little girls I battled Thyroid Cancer. Another Cancer hit me right after and my life was changed forever.... I began my journey of healing from so many childhood injustices, and fighting daily to be the best mommy possible yet not no confidence could I muster. I had begun a college degree program and I could not continue due to health problems....I had a goal for my daughter's and myself. I now know that was not meant to be, and shortly after the 2nd Cancer I got remarried to a man who had no children....that man helped me raise OUR daughter's ! Bless his heart he took all 3 of us on and he had no clue ! LOL ! He is the BEST POPPA !
Since the 90's I have become completely disabled. I worked in Direct Care lifting and caring for others until my back could not take any more. Still my journey continued, I began to grow healing herbs and flowers, and knew what to put into a healing tea automatically. I gave so much love to my beautiful plants, my home, and most of all my family. Along the years we picked up a few extra kids, BLESSINGS ! I was chosen by them to be their mom, I knew I was headed for something so much bigger than I ever imagined.... I began to remember my grandmaw telling me when I rubbed her back for her that I had healing hands.... I felt her with me so many times when I went out into the gardens, as if she was my guide. I was blessed to have 2 grandmother's who loved me and taught me everything they were meant to teach me.... I cared for both of them when it was their turn. In 06 my grams of 39 yrs was dying from cancer, and we had some really candid talks about death, life, ect. I explained my beliefs to her and she smiled and said I knew you had God in your life honey.... Sharing my relationship with the Divine One was private except with her.
Since 2003 I have been working with healing energy, sending to others, and counseling as I was needed. I have always had "faith" , although at times it may have wavered, it never left me. I spent a few years as staff on spiritual sites being a reader, and healer, and it faded back for a while.... Last January 2010 I was found to have had complete adrenal failure..... straight out the Endocrinologist said I should not have presented smiling, laughing or breathing.... WOW that hit me heavy and hard. That was the 2nd time I had heard that in 3 yrs. I have this loving family and I am NANA to 3 awesome grandchildren and due my faith and what I felt to be part of my calling, I survived some seriously bad illness. I really paid attention after last January....yes it all finally sunk in. But my question was still why? what am I meant to do? who needs me I am crippling up???? What a losey way to see to see my usefulness.... GOD made sure I fought and survived, the bravery for that I was blessed with !
I still have quite a story to tell and someday it WILL help someone else, someone who needs to know we get through things for reasons, not chance. I was given so many gifts and I now know it is time to use them.... that is why.....and for who? Me :O) I am well protected and guarded and only work for the greater good. I love it that I DO NOT KNOW EVERYTHING ! I love knowing I will learn something new EVERY DAY and I WILL NEVER KNOW IT ALL ! It sure will be exciting to see what else God has in store for me....
I AM A SURVIVOR........ I AM A FIGHTER FOR THE LIGHT..... I AM ME :O)
Blessings of Love, Light, and Beautiful Healing Flowers to all
