So I am sitting here listening to my favorite Rush song "In The End" from the album Fly By Night, I somehow connect with this song on an emotional level. In The End makes me feel better when I am sad, the song takes away the fact that I am a cripple (handicapped) I have Cerebral Palsy. When I listen to In The End I feel normal, I feel like me, I'm not just another person with a handicap that he or she has to deal with. To be honest just about any music that I am into has this same attrbute for me, but for In The End by Rush it's even more true.
I sometimes feel like I am not that important in this world, and if I didn't happen to be here, no one would really miss me, I feel as though I have nothing in common with anyone else that I know. I feel as though I am just here taking up space and breathing air that is for someone else's lungs. I don't think anything I do is important to others, I feel slow and and have a hard time getting around.
I don't really think others care as much as they say they do, I think it's all just lip service to make me feel better for a moment.
It's at times like these that I need music, and most of those times are spent listening to this song over and over..