The Cost of Forgiving and Not Forgiving
I don’t believe that person is really sorry” and “Saying ‘I forgive you’ won’t take away the pain”—these are two reasons why people are reluctant to forgive someone who has hurt them.
Forgiveness is not a Band-Aid for a wound; that wound has to be recognized for what it is, grieved over, and owned before forgiveness can be real, freeing, and lasting. To minimize someone’s pain with a “Hey, I’m sorry, friend” and without truly acknowledging any wrongdoing and its very real consequences—is an offense in itself. I believe we can only really forgive when we acknowledge both the truth that we are wounded and the depth of that wound. It is tempting to slough pain away and deny that we have been hurt. It can be embarrassing to be wounded: we feel weak or out of control, so we ignore it. We need to accept that we live in a world where pain is sometimes just part of the package. Once we humbly admit that we are wounded and allow ourselves to feel the pain, we can bring it to love for healing; only then can we begin the process of forgiveness. And, yes, it is a process. We human beings don’t always treat one another kindly, respectfully, or justly, and that truth makes it tough for me to want to forgive people who have hurt me. May my fear of being hurt be overshadowed by the truth that you’ll be with me even if I am hurt again. Help me, to do what is right even though it’s hard.
