today i saw an ex of mine that i havent seen in about two years. i guess in a way i broke his heart, it wasnt intentional. its just he wanted to get married for the wrong reasons. he wanted to be one in holy matrimony to fix what we had. where as i knew thats the last thing someone should do to fix a relationship. i soon after ended things and mourned the end of our relationship. today i saw him and i said hello, how are you doing? and gave him a hug. his greeting to me was ice cold, and his eyes had so much hatred for me. i tried talking to him, telling him holding this hatred for me or anyone isnt good for you. it wont make u happy nor bring u happiness. he didnt want to hear it. then said i loved you and still love you while i hate u and wish death upon you. i told him then u never truly loved me. to wish death on someone shows that u never truly loved that person. i sat down with him and told him each person we date is a puzzle peace. you gotta find all the peaces before u can make the puzzle complete. then told him he gave me something to add to my puzzle that ill never forget nor wish to. you helped me be able to act goofy in public. before i acted goofy with friends behind closed doors but never did i dare do something like that in public. you gave me the courage to do so, and thats something i will always remember you by. then i looked him in the eye and said tonight think about what i did for you, think is there anything i gave or did for you to help make u stronger or overcome something and remember that. my mother always told me to morn the losses cause there will be many but to celebrate the achievements/victories cause there are few. its funny how love can turn to hate. how we once welcomed someone with open arms we now wish to never speak to again. we as human beings must learn to let go of such petty things cause in the long run it will do us no good.
im sorry for rambling and for just venting i personally like reading stuff like this cause it gives me insight at times so i try and post things that i learned or am still learning to help others.
