I have heard you say and seen your posts on facebook
so many times; Theres nothing in Oil City, Oil City is
boaring, theres no work here, I cant wait to leave.
I love you but I have to tell you; Enough already.
Your life is what it is because you keep sabatouging it.
I listened to you and your young man arguing today
over him going to work.
He was overjoyed because he got a call to start work
with a contractor painting houses at a fairly decent rate
of pay.
He was trying to get ready to go and you kept arguing
with him saying you and the baby didn't feel good, you
were going to go home if he went to work, and numerous
other excuses to try to stop him from going to work.
All the while he is trying to tell you that he is doing this
so he can provide better for you.
He is trying to tell you that your mom will help you with
the baby untill he gets home; and I can tell you she will.
You may not realize it but he is doing something no other
boy you have been with would do.
He is takeing responsibility for you and the baby and trying
to give you better than you or he ever had.
I do understand; you are afraid he will get hurt again if he
climbs a ladder.
The last time he fell he died three times and come back and
you are afraid this time he won't come back then you and
the baby won't have him.
Daughter; You have to let go; just like your mother and I
had to let go of you.
If you let your fear stop him every time he trys to give you
better then you will never have the life you claim to want.
I have worked jobs were your mom sat at home waiting for
that dreaded call that I would never come home to her again.
I have went to work when your mom and you and your sisters
were sick but I went any way because that is what needed to
be.
There were plenty of times you or your mom would liked to
have had me at home instead of at work but I went anyway;
why, because if I didn't then I wouldnt get payed or I wouldn't
have a job; then were would you be.
You are wrong, He is right, He dont want to live in poverty for
the rest of your lives; he wants to give you everything you want.
You need to let him do it.
Let go of your fears and let him be the Man he is trying to be.
You need it, the baby needs it, and most of all he needs it.
If you keep holding him back like this every time he trys to
make better then one day daughter you will lose him.
If nothing else think of the baby; my grand daughter; do you
want your fears to keep her in poverty her whole life or would
you like for her to have the kind of life you allways dreamed
of for you and your child when you were growing up.
This Man is trying so hard to give you what I never could; don't
stop him.
I am telling you right now; you let go your fear and let him soar
and he will take you and my grand daughter to places you never
even dreamed of.
He loves you unconditionaly; try loveing him unconditionaly back.
No mater what job he gets there will allways be the possibility that
he might not come home; this is life and you need to deal with it.
Talk to your mom, ask her how she copes with her fears; Yes she
has fears too just like you but she don't let those fears keep me
at home.
She understands that if she lets her fears hold me down she is
also going to be letting them hold her and your sister down too.
I love you daughter but let go