I checked Facebook this morning, as I usually do, and found a surprise. My sister-in-law was already advertising the sale of my mom's home. First of all, I find this extremely tacky because she is not a realtor, we are not selling it ourselves, therefore if I was her 'friend' I would already know about the sale and she would be the first to know if I was interested.
I guess my second of all just deals with my own personal feelings. My mom wasn't in excellent financial shape when she passed away at the beginning of December, so I do understand the longer things drag the more that my brother and sister-in-law are financially responsible for things, such as the house payment, and other bills. Believe me I understand that. But this whole thing has gone so fast!! I don't really have any sentimental attachment to the house, in fact quite the opposite (Have you ever watched the movie 'The Money Pit'??) but when we had to go through Mom's stuff, and decide who should get what, and where the rest of it should go was EXTREMELY hard for me. I am still coping with my grief and some days are better than others, but I still find myself crying a lot and oh goodness dreaming A LOT about her every night. Sometimes I find myself wondering how much of this is 'normal'? I guess in reality there is really no such thing. I never did think I would take her death so hard, but appearance-wise, I am taking it the hardest.
Maybe some of the grief is coming from not really having a firm belief system. I want to believe there is life after death, and she is in a better place, but I really don't know what to believe. I think that has a lot to do with why I joined this site in the first place. To maybe find some answers that I seek. To not only make friends who can help, but also befriend others, and maybe help them in some way I may not even be aware of yet. Maybe I am being shown a glimpse of an answer right now... *smiles*
Thank you all for letting me share, I appreciate any feedback you might have. :)
