Another day filled with questions, and no answers. I sit back in my chair and wonder, Lord how do some survive, and some not survive the rat race of lieing. I started my day out with a positive attitude. I began speaking out loud, pleas God show me some thing today. So when i went to brush my teeth i looked in the mirror, and that was all i could think about was a positive thought. So i went about my buisness, even the cat was all happy and chaseing fake mice. Then once again tested. Phone rings and They wanna come get my vehicle. I said well, I have no horse, yet, You do what you have to do. I have been upfront, about my situation. So that will be gone in a few days unless money falls from sky. Sad after 3 years making payments and only 1k away from paying it off. So I sat back in my chair, and the cat jumped up in my lap, which pray tell threw me for a loop, for that never happens. He just staired at me and let out a whimper and ran off. Now don't laugh, yet its okay if you do. It was just funny cause what I thought was going to be horrible, he just made me laugh it off.
i will agree some breathing techniques would be good, so thank you for that. Funny little thing is, I found this church with a house, for very little money last week. Went and looked at it and for the price I was amazed. To bad cause that would have really been purfect day to aquire that. even if i did just cleaning, lol.
maybe if i had stuck with it when I became ordained maybe I wouldn't be here sobbing my toe nails off. Yet, I am here now seeking rocks in faith. Friends to lean on. It is a wonderful thing when you eliminate the negative in your life. Yet at times it a bit lonely cause you wonder who is coming around the bend.
Gods Speed to ALL
Charles Bex
