Sometimes you wish you didn't care so much. That you didn't care about how others felt around you all the time hoping and waiting for a chance to love them enough to feel better. Sometimes it hurts to feel like you are the only one around who has the strong feelings and yearnings to change your families lives and friends lives. Sometimes you wish you were just numb and ignorant to the fact that each one of us affects the other and that you would never have to learn that lesson. I notice especially that people I know that are in the ministry and trying to become a valuable healer, counselor and caretaker care so much that they physically hurt when they cannot achieve for others the peace that they so desperately need. When they need to hear something that is so key that you wish you could literally put it in their brain so they could not ignore it. I know that sounds a little zealous and elitist and believe me that is not my intent at all. I just know that I am one of those people that is extremely sensetive to people and things that are happening around me. Maybe it's just an occupational hazard that you have to be so keenly aware of others emotions and thoughts. I know that everyone goes through this kind of time and these feelings. I do believe however that some more than others end up in the thick of it more ( forgive me if I say this wrong) personally and with feeling that they have more to lose. I know that for me many times I just have to close my eyes and say," Mother and Father, let your words come out of my mouth and your perfect will guide me because I truly do not understand or fully grasp the situation." Sometimes it feels as though everything that can be felt is coming at me at full speed and I know that many like myself, psychics and mediums will drink or do drugs to block it out. I myself had a problem with that at one time especially when I was a teenager and I could feel others around me with no understanding of how to shield myself from the onslaught. Going to ask for others advice and wisdom here because let's face it, I am young and do not know as much as those who have been through certain things do. I do not want to bring anyone down though either. If you have felt this way or are feeling this way now. Would love to hear from you and may the Mother and Father God bless and keep you always and forever. Thanks for reading my rantings.LOL
Blessed Be,
Rev. Nick
I know how it is a times when I can be off track from being tired, over work or just not spending enough time spiritualy. I feel we oought to take care of ourselves first in order to really Bless others. We have to be in the right... more