Not many people (just close friends and my family) know that I am a published author of poetry,songs, short stories and that I have a novel in progress. I used to write daily for years. My mom (who died in October 2007 of cancer) was my biggest supporter and fan. I found that after she died I no longer had the passion to write that often. I think it was because of the grief that I felt. Along with the guilt of not being there when she needed me the most. God blessed me though. The night before she died we talked over the phone. (I was in Bonita Springs, Florida at that time and mom was in Dixon, Illinois). So, in an essence I got to tell her goodbye and that I loved her. Deep in my soul though I knew that she was going to die as soon as we hung up with each other. So, right before I went to sleep that night I asked God to take me instead of her. Because my mom was a very kind, gentle, and loving person. Who I thought should be left. God had other plans though. According to her doctor (who was also a close family friend) she started to bleed internally and they had to do an emergency operation to see where the blood was coming from. They sedated her before the procedure and my mom never woke up. She died peacefully and I thank God everyday for that. So, I was perusing through some of my "old" unfinished "works" and found one that was not totally complete. So, today I completed it and thought I would put it up here. To write again was exhiliarating and a wee bit terrifying. Maybe I am finally out of my rut. Which would be great so I can finish my novel. So here it is. This one's for you mom!
YESTERDAY"S TOMORROW
