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I have been super super depressed this week even Monday I wanted to end it all but prayed n dreamed n came to result No I am here for a reason but why, what I felt I was not being heard(&read) so I have been depressed because I felt ignored...
I know that there are a few people that follow or at least read my inspirations n very grateful for those but as I was laying in bed continuing an 24+ hour prayer n sleep n dreaming had dreams that where senceless but just went back to rest n pray even put on my music to block out notice of my roommates...
I asked Father what am I doing wrong n I was shown the old area where money changers did exchanges for money to temple money with a cut given to the money changes then I was shown churches of today with how they use the tithe they get n even using something once in a sermon so they can write it off their taxes... I was shown how these leaders are living well off n better off using tithe of the people to live as the leaders did that condemned Jesus... Then I was shown my self, I was starting to fell n hope for things I didn't need like my recent posts of computer that where not to costly to others but was amount out of my range so I was hoping to be better off by fellow believers...
I was then ashamed but my head was lifted up n I heard well more like I felt a message "Son you are young n are seeing others lead but are they leading my people to me??? ..." I was told more but it would get many leaders mad... I was then told "I am here to renew your LOVE n Passion for My Son Your Savior the Christ Jesus, once you get up You will have the Love in even more beautiful burning desire to teach/share My Son Jesus Love n Teachings then ever before..."
I got up from my bed and immediately deleted the posts about getting a new computer the I sat n wrote this; I am sorry for hoping to get others to provide unnecessarily goods like a computer, sorry I was bitter for not getting noticed that I haven't made any updates in a week, I fell n was lifted up again n my fire burns great again for my savior Jesus n the Love of God, thank You God for giving me another opportunity to share Jesus Love for ALL of us, Gay, Straight, Lesbian, Muslim, Hindu, Pagans, etc aka Everyone!!!
Wish I can share the feeling I am feeling right now, I feel electrified n have a warming in my arms n legs like they want to share the feelings with a touch to others...
Jesus Loves Us All n if You have done wrong/sinned I will not judge or condemn you because that is not my mission mine mission is to share Love to All, we are not meant to judge others we are meant to only judge ourselves...
...Love Yourself Jesus know we are not prefect n we fail so stop judging other n work on yourself to be a Loving example of Jesus!!!
HUGs!!!
~ Giovano C. Fusco Jr.
9:35pm - 10/3/2015
