I am reaching out to you, my fellow bretheren of Universal life. I am reaching out in hope that there is another out there could benefit from my life goal at this time.
I am in San Diego, California and I am existing, supporting myself minimally through a delivery sales job, door to door mostly that is rather soul crushing for me on a variety of levels.
While I have the skills of security, former military, Class A truck driving and a host of other various skills my true calling, the work that makes my spirit happiest is helping others. I even seem more able to help other people than I am able to help myself, often giving so freely of time, resources and energy that I have nothing left for me.
What I desire then, is a chance. An opportunity that I hope is out there, I wish to find a role, nearly anywhere in the world that affords me the ability to live, to have food, shelter and companionship as I work to help others.
I am, on the edge of a dark place in my life right now, and each day it is the exception if I do not have some fresh brush with the worst sort of depression, hopelessness, futility and a sense than nothing I do matters and that I may as well lie down and never rise again. So far, I have managed to get up each time, but I feel a little weaker, it takes a little longer and I can tell that my will, my spirit, my drive is growing worn and thin.
I do not care what faith you follow, which God, Goddess, Philosophy or Creed guides you. I just want a place to belong, where I am not beaten down a little more each day. A place I can heal and grow while helping others.
So, if any of you can help or assist me with this in anyway, I welcome it. The weight of the world is crushing me, I have lost this last month the last person that mattered to me, not a death, but in a way worse. Bottom line, I have no one to care for so I have no reason left to be.
Help.
