You are a child of a proud Father (1 John 3:2; Matthew 3:17), not of the “Disappointed-Dad-in-the-Sky”. You are in Christ and not under condemnation (Romans 8:1). Therefore, do not continually return to your sin out of shame. Don’t run from the Father and hide from him because you believe he will reject you.
Remember, “God’s kindness is meant to lead you to repentance”. His arms are open to you, not because of who you are, but because of who you are in Jesus. Abide in Jesus and follow his grace to repentance (John 15). Know that you are accepted by a Father perfect in love and understanding.