I find that one of the hardest things to do in life is to take an honest and thorough look inside myself and yet NOTHING in my world changes until I do that on a regular basis. For instance, lately I am battling a sugar addiction. Despite all sorts of health reasons, I find myself binging on it and then hating myself afterward for caving into the temptation once again. By doing a lot of soul searching I have realized how badly I sabatoge myself. I still can't really pinpoint the exact reasons for this addiction other than I am naturally a obseesive/conpulsive person. it's a family trait. :>/ But. I have figured out that I have to have the courage to change my situation, give it to the Universal Mind (UM) and have the faith that UM will take complete care of me if I allow it to, and I just have to do the best I can for TODAY. That's all that is really expected from me. This has all felt like a big weight off my shoulders cause I normally don't feel like I have any control whatsoever in my life. This feeling of lack of control actually makes me feel compelled to fight for control in the form of food addiction. Pure craziness. By just turning it all over I am releasing all the pent up energy I felt and letting the UM work through me. This morning I got up and despite the urge to jump right into my long to-do list, I stopped and did my Yoga, then I exercised and then I drank my protein shake. All things that I have failed to do for several months. If I don't use the tools I fall right back into my old ways of thinking. Now, I feel wonderful! I am so grateful for the UM and all the peace it gives me when I pay attention to it!
