In Christopher Penzcak’s book Sons of the Goddess, he makes the statement that purification is a big part of the witch’s journey.
This is why I chose to speak about my thoughts on purification from a Satanist perspective. I find it is useful in a roundabout sort of way within the right context. Many people see purification as living according to an altruistic sort of value like peace and good will, love and those type of things. The problem other than the fact that I don’t believe altruism really exists, is the fact that we are mortal beings and the wide range of spectrum of emotions such as hatred, awe and even fear as well as exaltation and esteem, love, joy and all the feelings on the total spectrum are a natural part of the human process that we cannot ignore. They are there.
Penzcak also mentions that the gods cannot be understood, which in many ways I agree with. With our finite capacity of thinking we can only empathize and conceptualize immortality in the truest context. We can only see our own behaviors to a certain extent, which I am blessed that I have taken the time to meditate reflectively on myself and have somewhat of a second person perspective on how I am.
Purification from a Satanist standpoint is about True Will which I expressed in an earlier post. True will is unabashed feelings, a purity of intention of living life to the fullest. We experience all the emotions fully and to the fullest extent possible, which brings us a great feeling of passion about life and existence.
Getting closer and closer to this passionate will power at a raw level is what the Satanist purification is all about. We can only experience Satan under such terms. The Al Jilwah says that he leads his rightly chosen by unseen means and exercises his dominion. When I look back in perspective of my experience with Chiristianity, I can definitely say that I see Satan’s hand at work. Some Christians would even agree with me from another perspective. They would say that I was lead astray and fell from grace and was tempted by Satan from following Jesus. I don’t see it that way from a negative destructive perspective at all.
The spiritual experience that I had that lead me to all this spiritual exploration of why it happened and what it meant, had healed me from a lot of hatred and animosity towards others and the concept of love. I kept justifying to myself that nobody had given me love, so I had not experienced any love, and love was just about sex anyways, so what’s the big deal? I had little maturity at the time to understand the bigger perspective. The spiritual experience of a dream happened and I woke up with tears of peace and love streaming down my face when I woke up as I had them streaming down my face in my dream.
I had experienced a spiritual love like never before, and could say that I finally had love. I initially took this to be a Christian orientated salvation type experience. I started exploring protestant Christianity from an already knowledgeable semi Judeo Christian experience, and felt I was lead in that direction and it was a message that I should not be so pent up and bent out of shape about love and so hostile towards the world because a relationship would be possible for me too.
However, as I started attending youth group in 2001 at the age of 19, and started exploring the born again and non denominational protestant christianity, my experience of acceptance was short lived about my experience. A pastor of a church I met with briefly told me to straight up quit lying about my experience. I was being totally forthright about what I experienced. I wound up feeling very rejected. I had much more toleration spiritually to handle it better than being angry at him, but it still hurt because I was considering the experience to be a sign that Christianity was the place to be.
That was not the case. Someone from this day would maybe look back on that and see the hand of Satan at work and say that I was actually tempted and he was causing conflict in my life. That I should have gone for Jesus instead.
The thoughts struck me that I was really just immature in knowledge of the personality of the type of woman I would want to raise children with in my life, and how I would go about raising children with what lessons I had experienced. I was feeling excited about the acceptance factor about things, but was largely dissapointed.
My whole Christian experience up to the final end of it, was void of any relationship activity. Even dating. This hurt because I had experienced what I did and expected these so called sisters of the faith to be more accepting of my status as a Christian and find some common interests and attraction to be involved, but it never came.
It still has not arrived to the fullest extent. I had a brief dating experience distance wise in 2020. This was a result of a prosperity spell I did that was very generic...
It is my belief now that Satan was in fact in the beginning of my experience and throughout my life. And it was a good thing. Several things I could not establish as accurate within the Christian faith, and could not consciously teach children of any type.
I cannot teach validly with good conscious that even good people like ghandi goto hell without Jesus in their life. I cannot teach validly that there is one vague character in the sky or beyond named God who as well lives within us. I cannot validly bring these principles to good consciousness to teach children in any manner at all.
I had to be purified from these false teachings in my life and live to my true will... I am now realizing that even the type of woman I would want in my life is not the immature insecure tini-bopper Christian cheer leader type that I would have to explain everything too, and nor would I want the sleezy stripper type who spends all evening with several filthy old men gazing at her nude all night and interracting even. I would not want that at all.
This balance between these characters is what I am about now and I had to be purified before I could see this and Satan was preventing me from some type of mistake that I would regret for the rest of my life. Also dealing with mental health issues and reforming from generational curses I had to experience and do not feel that I can validly get into making a family with those principles still looming over my head.
People falsely claim that if you follow Jesus he will grant you the desires of your heart. If that was the case that I had experienced Jesus, and I was healed from all that hatred and anger, wouldn’t he want me to experience the love of a good woman and add that too my benefit so that things would work out normally in perspective? He did not do this, and there was even lots of arrogance from several females I dealth with within Christian perspective. Regardless of all the holiness that Christians preach, Christians are not immune from human behavior, yet sometimes it so feels like they can be inhumane to the extent of being non human.
I had to realize through the lengthy life lessons that I was not ready for a relationship yet, and ask questions about whether I could teach children the things that Christians espouse with good consciousness, because raising a child is no joke. It is a severe responsibility, and you are in charge of caretaking for a human life.
I can say even now that my true will has matured to not be so concerned with relationship status, that in many ways they are rewarding, but often times they are not worth the effort and are more trouble than they are worth. So I’m not so bent out of shape about it now. I've been purified.
My true will in closer context to the way it is, is now more spiritually orientated. I desire to make an impact in the world around me for the better, that people will remember me for things that are the greater principles in life to be concerned with.
Things are not about Status quo, or meeting some type of movie script layout of how life is supposed to go. The judeo Christian faith I grew up in taught heavily about marriage and about missions and about the gospel, and taught heavily about them as central aspects of salvation, I cannot honestly believe that to be the case, and definitely not in good consciousness teach false lies to children when I validly don’t know the answers myself or even have a hint of understanding why.
A classic quote to sum things up maybe can lead to another blog post about intentions. The Road to Hell is paved with good intentions... Ironic when you look at it from a different perspective, and most defintely a verse to reflect on, the truth shall set you free.