Where is the soul? Is it attached to the mind or the body as a whole. I mean if you go brain dead, does the soul pass on or is it trapped on this realm. Not able to pass but not able to control its body. I had to face this question as I watched my mom suddenly die and be resuscitated after a half hour of death. In my heart I was sure she passed when her heart stopped the first time but in the end I am not so sure. She was kept on life support for 3 days while they attempted to bring her back to no avail. I didn't say much because I knew my dad had to try everything before breaking down and giving the ok to turn off the machines and finally let her pass. I believe he was terrified of making a mistake and giving in too early. Which who could blame him, and I was convinced that she had already moved on. As I watched the nurse turn off the machine and stared helplessly as my Mom turned gray, a calm relief came over me. I was by far the closest person to her in the room next to my father, but I was not sad. I did not cry, even though I was losing someone I loved deeply. I just felt calm as if a load was lifted off my shoulders. That is when I realized that she had finally passed and was at peace. The body in the hospital bed was no longer my Mom and I was finally in control of my emotions again. I am calm as I type this, even thought she is only dead for a several hours now. I have come to knowledge that the soul seems to be attached to the body as a whole. I feel cruel knowing that she was trapped for three days but am reassured that I know it was the best thing for my dad and I know my mom would agree. To my Mom: know I will always love you and that I will raise my little princess the way you taught me and I will do my best to ensure she still knows you in her heart even though you can't be here with us.
Brother Micheal McBride
